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hey guys beehee 

so we had a stayover and did a video and it was really funny so do watch it!! okay no watch it ya it's funny hehe! and i keep scratching my nose and lots of funny parts so dont miND ME GUYS. link below ! 

http://youtu.be/qb78JDuOk64

 

Ppyong~

C. 

Skin Care Routine

So many people have been asking for my skin scare rountine and i'm really lazy to get my camera out to film it so i decided to do a blog post about it! :)

Disclaimer: I bought all items with my own money.

 

So here are the stuffs that i use and it's abit alot in my opinion but great skin comes with hard work! Some of the items here may not be suitable for sensitive skin so use as appropriately. These are all drugstore items so it's affordable and able to be replenished easily :). My skin isn't sensitive at all so it's really great except for being ratchet in the morning. I do the same routine everytime after i bathe, and before i sleep at night, I wash my face once and do the routine again! I split my routine into two parts.

Part 1

Firstly, I spray my face with the 1.Bio Essence Miracle Bio-Water all over. The thing i like about this is how it makes my face less bloated and better moisturized especially in the morning. It's like calming down my skin. And it's also good for sensitive skin so yay for that! Then using my fingers, I put the 2. Garnier Milky Lightening Dew Toner on my fingers and put it gently on my face. Many will say to put toner in cotton pads but I feel it's a waste of time to make a trip to the toilet and it's really troublesome also so it's up to you if you prefer to use cotton pads! As the name suggests, this whitens my skin and helps to absorb the stuffs better later on as I continue as a toner. So if you wanna know why i'm so white here's your answer hehe. Number 3&4 are like a pair so i will explain them together. I firstly put 3. Hada Labo Hydrating Lotion and I believe this helps to make my skin "lock the moisture (?????) and make it soft and supple"???????? question mark??????. Then i put a drop of 4. Hada Labo Hydrating Milk and rub it all over my hand and pat it over my face. These two items have pH balance makes my skin better i guess. They help to really moisturized my face so that my face looks tighter and more "bouncy". And they help my pores look smaller too yipee! But I realise that after putting all these my skin really became better so /hawaii dances/. 

Part 2

I use the 5. Garnier Brightening Roll On under my eyes for my dark eye circles which really sucks and is black as hell :(. I recently bought this and is using it in my daily routine so i'm not sure if it's useful yet. Then I put 6. Avène Cream Gel Exofoliant. My face has looooooots of small oil pores so i put in specific areas so that it exofoliates my skin. I really like this and it does help but it's on the pricey side and i bought this with 7. on impulse HAHA.  I put 7. Avène SOS imperfections Spot Treatment on acne/pimple that just recover, or blemishes so that it helps to lighten and makes it better! Good as well but i remember using a much better spot cream which helps to magically clear my blemishes!!!!!! But i forgot the brand so i'm stucked with this for now boohoo. And lastly! I use 8. Oxy10 on all my pimple and acne. A thin layer for mild and a thick one for stubborn ones >:(! 

Yes so we are finally done with this yessss. If i'm in a rush i will skip part 2! So that's all and if you have any queries just drop me a comment ^^  Thank you for reading ppyong~

P.S. I'm trying for more dark eye circles products so if you have any good ones do tell me! Is tony moly ones good? 

Her

12:22AM and i'm being jealous of girls. Not megan fox, but just normal girls who are my age or even younger. I can feel my self esteem hitting rock bottom because i know that whatever i do, i won't be even be half as happy and pretty as they are. I can't stop scrolling through her instagram and twitter, looking at her friends and imagining how will life be if i was her. It's just that feeling and i know i'm just gonna be like this for the rest of the night. Sucks to be me. 

C.

When is it my turn :(

Holy shit so cute. On the way to work and i saw a teenage couple around my age but ahh they're so cute. The girl was like laughing and the boy was laughing along with her. And then suddenly he puts his hand on her head and lets her head lean against his chest. It isn't those isanely gross couple moment but just the shy move of the guy ahh. When the mrt jerked, he put a hand on her shoulder to steady her wow. The girl isn't victoria secret pretty and the guy isn't aeropostale hot but they're wearing matching colour shirt and it's just jajshwjdheh. The guy dresses really well too. Guys who makes an effort to dress well, you deserve an extra karma point i swear. 

P.S I got caught looking at them oopsie.

C. 

Mindblown

Wow what is this coming to. 

How can you even like someone without knowing them well enough. Not even knowing who they are actually and talking to them. Isn't liking someone, how u feel towards them and when someone asks you why do you like them - "I don't know really. I guess i just really like her." If liking someone is all about qualities what if one day that special someone loses that likeable quality, will you still like her? Or if you are together, will you still love her? And also women are not toys to play with. Don't just mess with our feelings and get our hearts all fluttery just to crash it down. Because that's not what we are for. We're humans. We have emotions too. Wanna play with feelings? Play with those girls whose heart turned black, not with those who tries their best just to impress the guy they like. Don't treat us like trash. 

Hah.

C. 

Wow

Sitting at the back of the car.

I looked at my father's hair, how the white hairs are growing out instead of the black. On the left of him, how my mother's skin looks thinner and less ....... youthful i guess. I have been too busy growing up and making a big deal of my own life that i have refused and missed out on how my parents are actually getting older. Sometimes, we're too busy growing up that we never realise how our parents are aging. I wonder what do they feel of them getting older, getting nearer to their final destination. I should really take more notice of people and things around me. Care for them.

C.

Skife (skirt-life) ha ha ha

I really like wearing skirt nowadays.

My shopping bag always has a skirt in it. Bandaged skirt, skater skirt, long flowing skirt, skorts, mini-skirt, gyming-skirt, office skirt, denim skirt, scallop-skirt, you name it, my wardrobe has it. I was never interested in skirt in the past and wore mainly shorts but now, look at me. I guess me wearing skirt has something to do with my life as well. I feel that wearing shorts makes ones legs feel suffocating and tight, just like how i expected my life to be in the past, and it indeed is, suffocating and tight. Skirts on the other hand, makes me feel free and comfortable. Yeah comfortable, that's the word. The different skirts i wear represent how i'm feeling that day and how i want a certain group of people to look at me. The scallop-skirt i wore to my family gathering, curved hem at the front and back but a cut at the side. Bold. The long flowly skirt i wore to church. Respectful. But am i really comfortable with my life now? With the skirt i was wearing? With people, my relationship with them? The way i view life and things, my perspective and opinions, really? Comfortable enough? Maybe when i find another clothing i feel connected to will then i be able to find myself. Jeans, dress, basic-tee? But for now, let's stick with skirt kkk. 

P.S. I'm getting really interested in basic-(inserts clothing) so maybe the next phrase of my life is coming?!?!???!

C. 

Shang xin

I'm sad.

Because i realise how much i want you. Your so warm oh tender hands, your eyes sparking with a different kind of spark. But i know i will never have you. That's why i'm sad. Sad so sad. Even if it's just for a moment or for a night, I want you so badly right now. I know how i will never be that girl who will run into your embrace and be the sunshine in your life. But even so, if i can't have you forever, be mine right now, please? 

C. 

오떻게

Short short short possst!

This is one of those days whereby I have problem and motivation continue to run :( My stomach hurts, my knees ache but none of those matter because my heart doesn't even feels like putting in effort, to even run. It's like telling me, there's no use running you wouldn't get anything out of it, but only tire yourself even more, give up, now. It's so relatable to my life that things I'm clinging onto, people and things around telling me to give up, to forget but nooooo, i stick onto it like some sticky chocolate (i like snickers btw!!!!). My heart feels heavy, so heavy, so so heavy i feel tired even trying to breathe. I would rather be alone and lonely than be in a crowded place. I push people away most of the time and isolate myself, try to talk less, be less obvious, because i have been thinking so much think think think. If you ever caught me in a daze i'm probably thinking. Thinking bout me, bout him, bout this universe. I think being quiet sometimes have its perks. Observe people and you know something like "people watch". Who are they? Are they happy? Everything was about me and more me in the past. I guess I changed. My looks, my habits, the way i talk, my attitude, character, personality. I changed alot, so much. 

P.S. Someone better catch me before i fall too hard.

C.

Oh why.

Movie nights,

performance outdoors, 

with a blanket laid down,

lights glowing,

enjoying the night. 

Birds chipping,

preparing for the night,

Crickets singing,

in messy tunes,

but in happiness. 

How perfect that night,

us sipping tea,

from our oh so tea set,

sharing kisses and stories,

wishing that night will never end. 

P.S. Let's do this together one day? 

C. 

진짜요?

야후우우우우우우~ 

Thought really deeply about something while in the car on the way home don't ask why lmao. I guess I have different views and opinions on people my age who are no longer virgins. I feel that we should really love our body and protect it well because it's our responsibility. But on the other hand, if the guy loves you for who you are (a.k.a) your soul, he wouldn't mind your body because it's just something physical. Everyone has different opinion about it and we just have to accept it with an open mind. 

So I went to my friend's church today for some charity stuffs and honestly it's an eye opener for me because people there are really open, outgoing and friendly, totally different from people and friends around me. They dance and sing confidently but maybe they have known each other for very long but still. Aug was like stop judging but i wasn't but impressed okay HAHA. And then i helped to sell swiss roll which was really good and got sold out!!!!!!!! Yay for swiss roll! Thank god for friends! 

And then i got picked up and went to my aunt's house and guess who i saw !! CHLOE!!!!!!!!! Most adorable dog and she's so playful, doesn't bite and my day was just made a whole lot better by her! Went to Karina's house too heh! 

 Always a mandatory car ride selfie! 

 

Thankful for this day and people around me! 

C. 

Enjoy while you can

So i just decided to write this blogpost because i have beenz thinkingz ofz myz lifezxc LOL. 

Asked this friend of mine working with me (she's 21 btw), what will she do if she can relive her 16 year old days. And what she said honestly surprised me because it's not "study hard" but instead enjoy your life and do what you like. She also mentioned how stressed we are now but if we ever look back it's just a tiny speck of our past. Take our psle for example, pretty much all of us were doing papers and assessment books, stressed as hell but to us now, it's easy peasy. So i guess being positive and enjoying life is something i should be doing right now. Be bold. Be confident. Do what you like. Confess to your crush. Tell someone you love them. We have to realise life, is actually really short. Being positive and having good vibes really helps and turn things around, makes people to see stuffs from different perspectives too. That's what I'm trying really hard to do. 

C. 

Souled

Wanted to just blog maybe something small because I'm waiting for my stomach to digest my food before going for a run mmhmm. 

Everything around me reminds me of you. Songs, trains, so much stuff. But i just have to convince myself that i can't and shouldn't like you because I wouldn't be the type of girl that you like and i shouldn't be wasting my time and mind space thinking so casually about you. The person at the losing end would only be me. So hopefully i will stop thinking about you and it will go away soon; good vibes! Lots of things to say in my heart but i just dont have the feel to type it out because i dont know how to phrase it ahhh. ㅠㅠ 

On the other hand, today hasnt been a really great day because the salad i made was too wet and also i spilled and troubled my boss a bunch of stuffs. Are you the jinx who took away my distraction and motivation? Hah. Weird to say this but i really cant wait for school to start. At least with school i will have an aim and a goal in my life to do something and be occupied. Instead of just drifting along and taking each day one step at a time, makes me feel lifeless too. Everything looks like it's falling apart. I really want to be a devoted buddhist and go more into buddhism so maybe i will talk to my dad about it. ㅋ 

SALAD SALAD SALAD my hand even smells like salad. 

Off for my run maybe i will blog again later? ppyong~ 

C. 

P.S. does putting C. makes the whole thing looks weird help 

New Start

Guess this is a new blog again hehe. 

Wanted a username with soul inside because then it will represent what I really want to say or rant from deep inside my heart. 0186 a number of this very special someone but doesn't matter because souled/./blogspot/./com wasn't available sighsie. Pretty much just laying on my bed and using my laptop typing and thinking what I really want to write about and also preparing to go to school and work. Tough day ahead since I'm gonna work for 10 hours today so let's do this well! 

So much stuffs on my mind recently about you that's driving me crazy. Going to places we have been before and doing stuffs which keeps reappearing in my mind ha ha ha. I don't think it's a crush but more of like a infatuation hmm maybe? S'okay I will just be a little kid idling in my own little world. We all have this stage whereby we have crushes and love but all I understood was just loving people and appreciating people who are around you, your friends, family, loved ones. Not in any urge to get a boyfriend or anything but let's just take things slowly and SINGLE READY TO MINGLE WOOHOO. Maybe when the right person enters we shall see how from there haha. So deep of celine to say all those but hey it's the truth isn't it!



But boys don't like sad girls. 

C.